9:53 p.m. - 2003-09-10
black as night
tiny toy cylinder stuck in the window pane
holding the window up
everything in my car melted
before i crashed it
in pain and in debt
remember her heart coming of age
now withered with dreams of violent fear and blood and shit and self sacrifice
breathing dreaming of golden red rain and ruptured cystic veins in
pain and shame
slept in smoother planes
the world of a womb
bullet to the chest
glass eyes and a stub for a leg
driven and burnt by the sun
shaky hands grasping at an outsized shot gun
a million specks of red
fill the room
from a perforated head
to fly
hit to the head with an aluminum cylinder
with legs separated
cut off and spread
if lost sleep over lost dreams
of lost faces and times and places
was the cause
of being dead
