7:58 p.m. - 2007-06-16
you were dead but you wanted to be free
Do you know
that feeling
the way dogs watch you after they’ve been hit by cars
Few things are as lonely
Somewhere a junky fixes his arm
after his heart beat is replaced
by a humming machine
LIFE and EMBODIMENT
how am I supposed to embody this big mac
or this crazy vagrant prostitute underneath my window wearing a wedding gown and dancing seriously hot funky dirty
like im better off
some things are so cheap
(you know, that which is black, that which is woman)
like im better off
i always wondered what would happen if i drank a bottle of windex.
My life is a chandelier
dropped from an airplane.
Ive been sick and lame since
everyone left, the party ended
I was sicker and lamer back when
everyone wanted a piece of me
Like a bearded lady with a ribcage
more freaks per dollar what a bargain
some dirty hot disease
speckled fairy dust
up the nose
around the corner
blowed
I loved everyone enough to never let them see
around my corner
my machinated heart is humming around in circles
since I was
Never smart enough to stop.
Im so fucking stupid
just hold me
in your lap
like I actually didn’t just throw up in the bathroom
I was taking a bath
Water running and the fan humming and your mom calling...
Youre one fierce pussy cat
Youre one high cunt
Youre one disgusting disaster.
with your bloated stomach and too small shirt apologetically revealing that hungry triangle of pale white flesh
Yea I know I cant believe I did that either
What was I thinking? Well I can tell you that I was thinking it was a pretty good fucking idea
I was lame and stupid
Id whore myself just to be worshipped
Basking in the glory of being someones favorite thing
You thought I was a puddle of pain
oh but little did you know
My dirty hot heart extends to the limits of your monastic conscious universe
and its all infinitely black.
